The Lonely Road I am referring to happens to be very crowded, but most people don't say a word when walking down this road. Their heart is too heavy, their pain is too deep, some don't even know they are hurting.
I had a miscarriage 4 weeks ago. My baby was just over 15 weeks gestation. I saw her on the screen 3 weeks prior, her heart beating rapidly. I went in for a checkup and to get my blood work done on March 24th and there was no heartbeat. Again, I saw her on the ultrasound machine, but there was no heartbeat.
My heart aches. I am faced with so many decisions, and I don't really know which way is up. I have received many lovely cards and notes. I have learned of so many mothers that have experienced the same heartache, many not knowing that they could request their baby's remains and have a proper burial. They could have closer. It's a baby.
Her heart was beating. She has hands and feet. She wasn't fully developed, but I recognize her life.
Lauren Rose
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